aaarrgghh!!!

OMG. OMG! OMG!!! i am so angry and frustrated with myself and the things that happened. like seriously, WTH! i got everything on paper okay. EVERYTHING. but nothing came out right unntil it was too late.. why was i so nervous??!! it was such a waste you know. we had such a good case but i failed to deliver my part after promising my team i will not let them down this time. 

the strategy was perfect. the positive approach, providing a mechanism and the perfect combination. UNFORTUNATELY.. Nothing came out right on my part. my teammates did their best to cover for me but it was just too little too late. it was a total nightmare until the summing up speech where the the keyword of our debate was finally revealed. 

FOOD AID + FOOD TECH

Was that so hard to say, Martina? gosh!

i had everything on paper. i was just too lazy to organize it and it has definitely cost us. i feel really sorry for Fert & Hema who had to live with horrible writing throughout the royals. my sincerest apologies, guys. i PROMISE to write nicely and organize everything before a debate next time. 

Nevertheless, I'm still upset.

 i'm upset no one understood what i'm trying to say.

i'm upset i could not make them understand what i'm trying to say.

i'm upset i could not say what i really wanted to say.

and last but not least

i'm upset no one commented on my summing up speech..

i wanna scream but i don't know how to do it anymore. SIGHS..

PROVOCATION is the key!