HELP! i don't feel like doing anything at the moment. i've got quizzes and tests coming and assignments and reports to complete, but i can't get myself to do them. why, oh why am i doing this to myself?! this will ruin me for sure. one thing i've learnt about myself is i can't force myself to do stuff because the outcome won't turn out the way i want it to be. i have to really want or believe that i need to make myself do something. but now, it seems like i've lost the will to do anything altogether. nothing seems fun or worth looking forward to anymore. i hate feeling sorry for myself cos it's extremely pathetic. all i can do is cry like an idiot. no one can help me or change me except myself. and it's the fasting month! to discover that this is really who i am is pretty depressing.

i've also found out that i navel-gaze a lot. a condition which involves Excessive introspection, self-absorption, or concentration on a single issue. sounds bad, doesn't it? sighs.. oh yea, i googled my sweaty palm condition yesterday. i now know that it is called PALMAR HYPERHYDROSIS.

I feel so down and i cant get myself back up again. i must sound extremely hopeless right now but i have to express these feelings somewhere with the hope that no one actually reads it cos then i'll appear like a total loser. SIGHS!! hope i'll snap out of this thing asap. i've got too much to do in so and too little time.