patience is a virtue. i feel like a control freak for wanting to be right all the time. when people disagree with me, i tend to get pretty upset but i think i'm rather good in controlling my temper. it is even harder if those people are your friends. you expect them to understand your way and vice versa. it is hard not to turn it into a heated argument and without any hurt feelings. so i walk away most of the time. these are the people you need to see everyday and you don't want to make anyone feel awkward or hold grudges against each other. you still want to care about them and for them to care about you. without these individuals called friends, life would be so dull, you wish it would end quickly. they are the people you turn to when you feel the world has turn its back on you, or when you're so happy that you feel you're over the moon. these people are the ones you share your deepest darkest secret, but i have yet to find someone who i can really trust. betrayal has left me scarred for life and i will not put myself in that position again. and yet, i long for that special friends, someone who listens without making judgments, someone who will not leave when times are rough, someone who accepts me for who i am, and our friendship will surpass any obstacles that come our way. unfortunately, my ideal is not easily obtained. each person has something called free will and sometimes what these people want might not coincide with yours. human beings can be very selfish sometimes and the worse part is, they might never notice it. i try to rid myself of such a cruel thing but at the end of the day, i'm still human. i realize that most of the things i want i can never get. and if i do, i should be very thankful to the mighty creator for giving me a chance to experience the beautiful side of life.