annoyed

oh wow.. there are so many things i want to say, i mean write. lol. this few weeks have been really challenging. not to mention i've had the worse ever mood swings in history. my sensitivity level is at a peak and everything everyone said, i took it personally. however, we must remember that it takes two to tango. i will not be like this unless i was provoked. there are a few levels to my deep case analysis (yeah, right!)

Level 1: Manners matter

some people are just plain rude. they think they're being smart or funny; but here's news for you. that is really hurtful. no one should ever amuse themselves or find any kind of satisfaction at the expense of others. put yourself in their shoes. imagine how painful it is to be bossed around, to be laughed at. you yourself have complained to me how ones words drove you to tears. if you know how much that hurts, why do  the same to others?


Level 2: Me, myself & I

don't wait for others to do what you enjoy most. yes, the saying goes that it's not the places you go, it's the people you share the experience with is what truly matters. what if they refuse to share the experience with you? what if they are not interested? YOU do it anyway. yes, it might seem a little terrifying at first, arriving alone, clueless and probably confused. look at it as a chance for you to make new friends or catch with those you haven't spend much time with. we may be friends but that doesn't mean we see eye to eye in everything. there will come a time when you have to stand on your own, act as an individual and hopefully succeed while enjoying yourself at the same time.


Level 3: You first, others second

yes, i know what you're thinking. i'm being selfish, aren't i? well, that's what i thought too, until i was proven otherwise. time and time again, people keep telling me that i should not care too much about what others feel or think but i find it hard to take them seriously. i try my best to take everyone's thoughts and feelings into consideration. i want to be as fair as i can be. i don't mind getting it a little hard as long as they are happy. but guess what? who's going to keep me happy? who gives a rats arse if i am unhappy? no one but ME.


Level 4: Crap talk

the one thing people keep forgetting when they open their mouth to speak

perhaps i am guilty of some of the things above too without even realizing it. i know how much it hurts to be treated that way and i've promised to always keep myself in check so that history does not repeat itself.