i miss you

i've stayed up for the first time this week.. which is bad because i'm suppose to be burning the midnight oil on a daily basis. i guess the caffeine did its job tonight. anyways, i've been missing home a lot these past couple of weeks. it's getting lonelier with everyone minding their own business. perhaps it's just temporary? i truly hope so..

it's really funny, when i really miss people, i can't bring myself to tell them that i miss them.. 

~Segan la~

even my parents! the more i miss them, the harder it is to say 

"I miss you"

 i really hope they know i miss them every single day i am here. same goes to the entire family <3

the same goes for friends you know.. those who you use to spend a lot of time with, and suddenly you're drifting apart because you're too caught up with your own lives. i miss the bus rides home, the heart-to-heart conversations, the lame jokes. lol. good o'l times they were.. perhaps it is my fault for not hanging on to it the best i could. i guess i was just a little upset because it felt as if i was the only who was holding on to something that was already gone. so i allowed it to slip away from my grasp and now.. i can't say that i don't regret it. maybe it was my fault for taking things too personally or was it just life taking its course? it's a mystery that will probably never be solved..

some people do stick around but the others.. they leave. i'll definitely miss them. i hope they know that too. because i really do not know how to say these things. it gets really awkward when i do and sometimes it just doesn't come out right. i refuse to destroy the moment with my untimely gestures. sighs.. this is ridiculous. 

the point is.. i miss you. i miss all of you. i really hope you know that..